Before I started dating the smotherer (who I am obviously no longer seeing), I was told that he was a huge player and I shouldn't get involved with him. Turns out, I've dated/kissed more people than he has. A lot more. I'm not really sure how he got a rep as a player, but it got me thinking about myself.
The smotherer and I didn't work out because he wanted to spend all this time with me and constantly be near me, but I just didn't want a relationship and even though he wasn't calling it a relationship, what he wanted was a relationship. And in the midst of this I was dating this guy I met online briefly, though that didn't last long.
Through this all, my ex wants me back, but I can't commit to him because I'm too scared of getting my heart broken. So I told him that I'm going to continue seeing other people until he moves to New York.
And now I met this new guy who I kinda like. He's not like the smotherer, but he's a nice guy and I suspect he's more of a relationship kinda guy. And what with my ex boyfriend in the picture and my disinclination to be in a relationship, I can't foresee this ending well. And in fact, it's probably a really bad idea for me to be pursuing this at all because chances are it will end in flames...
But I'm having entirely too much fun to not pursue it. And to be honest with myself, that's probably part of the reason I can't commit to my ex (besides having had my heart broken) - I just don't want to. I don't really want a relationship period right now, and especially not a long distance one that has all the baggage and obligations of a relationship but none of the fun part (like kissing, cuddling, going on dates, etc).
So apparently in the last few months I've become a player. Not sure how it happened, but it's kind of a nice change of pace from getting played...
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playa playa =]
better than being a pimp, i guess